Warning: Today’s post is a bit of a rant (and not even a well written rant at that)
I’m not sure if anyone reads this regularly since I post so sporadically (please leave me a comment if you do!) but I’m hoping just the possibility that someone might will make me more accountable.
I’ve been frustrated with myself lately because I have so many goals and things I say are important to me, yet I continue to do things that are completely counterproductive to what it is I say I want.
They are all interrelated so here are some of the things I say (and think) I want to do:
- Lose Weight
- Eat Healthier
- Get in Shape
- Save Money
- Earn More Money
- Focus on the projects I think will ultimately allow me to earn more money and have the kind of career and work life balance I truly want.
Here is what I’ve actually been doing:
- Eating terribly on most days
- Working out only 1-2 times per week, burning 200-300 calories per workout at most
- Shopping and dining out multiple times per week
- Focusing on attending free events and taking surveys for GCs rather than putting real work into projects that have potential to make money
- Watching hours of tv every day
Why is it so hard to get motivated? Why are my priorities so messed up? It’s true that I like watching tv better than going to the gym, but some days I spend a half hour going through the guides (on demand, netflix, HBO Go) to find something to watch because I’ve already seen my regular shows that week. Why is it so hard to drive 5 minutes to the gym (or walk) and spend a half hour on the treadmill instead?
I want to write a book, and I’ve started on what I think is an amazing idea (best selling even). So why is it when I sit in front of the tv I choose to take surveys for Amazon or Sephora GCs instead of making myself write? I justify the surveys saying they’re like cash since I use them for things I’d be buying anyway (household goods and makeup). But if I really have a best selling idea, wouldn’t publishing the book earn me infinitely more to spend on these things plus that cute LV clutch I’ve been eyeing?
Why do I go to every event I’m invited to, even the ones I’m not interested in? I feel like I never have enough time (despite the tv), I’ll need to take more time to write about it, I’ll eat unhealthy food, drink too many cocktails, and feel bad about myself later.
It ends now.
I’ve decided to use this blog as a place to track progress towards my actual goals and hold myself responsible. Some are easier to monitor daily than others, but the daily goals will be somewhat of a check list. The others will be more in the form of periodic updates.
If anyone is following and wants to join in, feel free to leave updates in the comments with your own personal goals and progress.
For now, here are mine:
- Write at least 30 minutes a day: Done
- Exercise at least 5 days a week, 30 minutes minimum: Done, this morning I did day one of a Couch to 5K Program for 30 minutes total
- Meal prep and only eat out at places that are worth it
- Track my calories on My Fitness Pal every day